LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Thursday, January 3, 2013, 10:40:00 PM
Beginning? Or end?

Work starts to enter a plateau where things start to get a little simpler. I mean I start to see the bigger picture of my job scope and thus a lot of details are therefore clearer and easier. Whether I like this job?

No. But I like the people, I like the time, or rather, my time. My job revolves around ensuring people doing legit businesses and stuff like that. I am not really into writing a whole chunk of stuff regarding my job.

People. Yes. People. This is the time where I think I am experimenting who I really am. I guess some of my friends were right, I am never on a side. I always go where it is more advantageous. I mean I am practical, backbone don't save your ass at the end, so why have it?

I have no idea. Everyday I learn something new. Everyday I try to drain myself out. I am very tired right now. But I think I have to start some archive here so that at the end of the day, there's at least something to read when I am old and such.

I don't think I am smart. Neither am I hard working. I am just an average Joe with average stats for everything. Come to think of it, I have no character, no money, nothing. But I am those who would like to work towards something. I mean I used to set my aims too high, really high. Now I've seen a little more about the real world, its maybe time to really think about what I want in life.

I think life is not about beating others, neither is it about beating yourself. Its about having whatever it takes to make things easier, its about doing what you really want.

Since young, I've been taught to be observant. And I had never doubt the strength of being observant till last year. I can still remember that night when Fann Kor called me over to her desk and ask why am I so affected by the surrounding, and it makes me seem like I am not concentrating. I was shocked. Really shocked. Since young I thought it would be good be observe stuff around me, but now it backfired.

What is right, what is wrong? I don't know. I only know for every decision that you make, you forgo something, regardless big or small, good or bad, there is something that you lost.

Sometimes I wish there were some things that were never told to me, other times, I wish I had parents who knew how to guide me.

Well, life is not easy. 2013. My resolution? Save up, lose weight, clear exams, find the special girl.

Greedy me, but who on earth is not?

Right knee, right shoulder, I have no idea what happened, but they hurt. Oh well, and I am joining the inter-department basketball game this month. This is what I want? I don't know. But lets try it out.

Been watching a lot of dramas lately, TVB serials, Hong Kong movies, tons of cantonese stuff. And my eyes landed on this guy, 關楚耀.


I like his dress sense, his hair, and its something for me to work towards. But I know, my profession is not a model nor a artiste or whatever, I am a tax officer, but we will see how it goes.

p.s. I really hope this year will be better for me, like how I really wish it is better for my friends.