LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012, 11:52:00 PM
Fresh

Things do change. Well, I am not really feeling that great today. Not that work sucks or something along those lines. Work was in fact better than expected.

We all anticipate a lot. We all hope for a lot of good things to come. But at the end of the day, the truth does not match our expectations. So we got a little sad. Its 11pm now, I need to sleep soon. But I feel that I should record something on this archive.

I realise that I am actually higher paid than other diploma graduates. Well, maybe they take into account your GPA or maybe I have like a little more prior working experience.

Tomorrow is my orientation. I have no idea what is installed for me. Not like I have high hopes or high anticipation about it anyway.

Somehow, somewhere in my heart, something is missing. Not work, not money. I just don't know what. But it made me felt as if I have to work towards something.

Yeah, colleagues were awesome. Superiors were nice so far. I had what I wanted, a low stress work environment. And a perfect place to have a work-life balance. People are quite young there, like averaging 20-30s.

I am not disappointed, nor am I sad. I just feel a little empty, like something is missing.

I met this girl called Guan Ting. Well, why I notice her is because of her ring on her 4th finger. She looks like she's like 22? I have no idea what her age is, but that ring did attract my attention.

Well, one of the new recruits was trying to socialise and begin talking to her, like asking why IRAS and pretty much those standard question. She said she was married for 1 year and yeah she wanted like a sit back job without much commitment where she can go home and take care of her CHILD. YES CHILD. Married for 1 year. A child. I mean, do I need to go into details? Graduated from NTU this year. WELL WELL, someone didn't follow certain instructions I believe.

Another guy was called Samuel. Well, he looks like a total nerd. Like totally a nerd. A bowl cut hairstyle, with a tummy. Its like those people that you consider lifeless on TV.

My team had another new recruit. He's David. He sits like behind me, and probably my lunch buddy for most of the time I will be having in IRAS. Well, he says that work is okay around here. But I learnt it the hard way that I have to take things with some pinches of salt.

The journey to work is actually quite bad. Like really bad. Walk to Lakeside 15mins. Train from Lakeside to Raffles Place, 30mins. Train from Raffles Place to Novena, 20mins. If you include in waiting time and squeezing time, going to work takes around 1hr 15mins. I need to find a long term solution to this, man, wasting 2hrs 30mins daily is going to be really bad on a long term basis.

Tomorrow is dress down day because of the orientation. And my Fridays are all dress down, T-shirt and jeans. Well, that means I need to iron only 4 shirts per week.

This is like the worst post I'd written in a while. I was reading through and I saw so many grammatical errors. Well, I am tired today, and will settle for this.

I would like to find a clique in IRAS, and then maintain a low profile in my stay. I will probably try my best not to be a peacock, in which I know I am borned one.

I like independence. I stopped my mum from washing my stuff and clearing my stuff for me. I think its a good time for me to start learning how to start doing my own things. Work is not that bad, so I have no excuse to make my mum work extra hard for me.

I feel like growing up now, now that I start to wash my own clothes and pay for everything that I use. Its like you start getting the idea that you can survive by yourself now. And I like that. Well, I am paid higher than I was in EY. I probably am paid more than what I will receive if I stayed in EY.

Life starts to wither into a smokescreen where I have no idea what I will be facing.

p.s sometimes confidence can be your bane.