LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Thursday, October 18, 2012, 10:21:00 PM
Differ

Thursday. Rain, shine, gloomy. Today seems to have all sort of weather. I'm tired.

We grow everyday. We learn something new everyday, no matter from work, friends or family.

I actually wrote a lot, but after reading it over, I didn't know what I was writing. So I decided to write about something else.

People are forgetful. They will forget about what you have done or even who you are if you don't appear before time from time to time. I am saying this because I think it really happens to everyone. It also happens to me. Its those busy days that makes the time flies past. Its those happy hours that you realise suddenly, its getting late.

Sometimes, we have to accept that some people are just close to you because it is convenient to do so. In time to come, the convenience will fade away, and somehow the distance will grow. I am not saying that these people are very realistic or what. I am stating a fact.

Think about how close you can be with your neighbour. We are talking about someone whom have no strings attached to you. Well, I used to be very close with my neighbour. We played at the corridor for hours and hours. We go to the playground, fall down, hurt ourselves together. Whatever it is, we had fun.

That was like 15 years ago. He moved away like 10 years back. We lost contact. I heard that he went to Oxford to study sometime back. Well, its kind of awkward now even if I meet him. I still remember those days when we run about topless, played 2 person catching, fall down the stairs, played Lego, got scolded for stupidest things like stealing of sweets.

To be honest, I can only remember him as Issac. I can't really remember how he look like. In my mind, he's just a blurry young kid.

24 years of my life passed. So many people came and went in my life. I mean its really a lot. I worked at so many places before that sometimes people call my name in public and I was like, who are you? Then they mentioned like: remember the waiter at Shangri-La. And I will be like, yeah I remember Shangri-La, but not you. It is kind of sad. But at the end of the day, who will stay by you?

Yeah, I do try to keep in contact if I know the other party is interested. I mean at least they bothered to keep conversations going. I have my own pride. I mean, if I have to keep initiating conversations or stuff like that, you can't clap with one hand. Sometimes you need the other hand to work as well.

The saddest ever thing that was said to me is: If there's nothing to talk about, don't.

I mean seriously, I sent you a message because I want to talk to you. If you feel that there is nothing to talk between us, then I am sorry to bother you any more. And I don't think we really have much in common. By being nice to you, it doesn't always mean I have fell for you. Sometimes I appreciate the length of our friendship and I believe I can do something for you.

Then if you are not interested or you feel that I am here only to slot your timeline. Then I am sorry to tell you that I also have my own set of stuff to do. I might not be as popular as you, but I too have my own friends in which will put me in a higher priority compared to you.

I ask for fairness. I know it is hard. But at least try.

Sometimes I do stupid things, and I know it. I think it helps people who are really down to really have something to laugh about. I might not be very good at it, but I am trying.

p.s. Love and friendship are just a line apart. I got lost between it once, but it is all clear now.