LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao
There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012, 1:11:00 AM
Pride
I am on my way back from Bangkok. Dead tired but many thoughts flashed through my mind. Pride. It can drive someone to such a high efficiency that it's ridiculous. Sometimes there are somethings that are unreachable in the world that you really really want. You tell yourself that you can be anything that you want. But at the end of the day, people give up. Either at the start, or mid, or even right before the end point. To me, it doesn't matter. You gave up. That's all that make sense to me.
To be completely honest, I had been trying to run away from the reality that I have to face. Come on, my ledger is already red. But I believe I'll find a way out. I ate so much this week that suddenly I think that I didn't have that determination to do it. But let's see what happens tomorrow.
There are different people in the world. But who you want to be lies in your hands. That's what everyone says, so I believe it will eventually make sense.
People will take you for granted if you start to give way. These few days, I asked myself what am I really doing. Honestly, not easy. Lets not just talk about the money. The time. And the ridiculous amount of calories. It's scary.
Pride. Back to this pride issue. I strongly believe that I need to build on my pride. I need to start believing in myself. The last few months were horrible. I believe once I regain some pride, then I'll be back. To fight for something that is lacking. Be it money, weight loss or whatever, pride.
All the changes that I'd made for you. I don't know now. I wasted my time, you turned off the lights, now I'm just like dead.
If promises are really meant to be kept, then I believe things will be a lot different now.
If happy ever after did exist, I'll still be with you this day. All those fairy tales are just shit, one more fucking love story and I'll bite.
Even the sun will set in the paradise .