LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Sunday, August 21, 2011, 3:13:00 AM
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Been another long week. Or rather quick. Time passes so fast when you are busy that it's like VROOM..

This is or will be a busy weekend with lots of fun and work.

I am giving up. I ate and ate and ate. Why? Maybe I have a weak mind. Perhaps if I tried a little harder, things might change. But at the end of the day, I guess I didn't persevere. I am a little worried now. I keep giving myself excuses to run away from the discipline that I am trying to build. Maybe it is not worth it, but as long as I tried, I will not regret.

People start to change. Or rather, you tend to see the truer side of people with time. What is right? What is wrong? I can't really differentiate anymore.

It is nearly 3am, and I am tired. But I can't seem to fall asleep on this dark night. Why? I don't know. Perhaps I'd a heavy mind. I might not be the best friend that you can have. But I want to let you know that I'll be there if you need me.

Perhaps the problem lies with me. But all I wanted was to make people around me feel a little better. I am not a person who looks for returns with all the things that I'd done for others. I feel that giving is much easier compared with receiving. I know I can't change the world, and the world will not change for me. So the only alternative left is for me to change.

Everyone is saying that I am confused. But am I? Do I really know what I want? Or people THOUGHT that I am confused. I am confused over this.

I know that I have nothing worth people's time. But all I want to know is that: if I tried harder, will things change?

At the end of the day, will things really get better? Honestly, I don't know anymore.

People say that you will be rewarded if you work hard. But does working hard equate to success? If that's the winning formula, I'll follow by it. I can totally understand how people do things in such a way at times, but we must also put ourselves in other shoes at this time. I know we can't please everyone, but can we minimize damage?

Do we really have to take a stand?
Do we really have to place the bet?
Do we really have to play this game this way?

Or somewhere, somehow, there's a shortcut to this rainbow that I've no idea about?

When will I ever be good enough for you?

p.s. Life is short, embrace change.