LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Friday, July 1, 2011, 10:19:00 AM
Rash

July arrived. So what's next?

Work is going to start soon. I have some sort of fear in me that is causing me to make a lot of wrong decisions. Well, that's besides the point.

Regret. We make a lot of decisions everyday. Some important, others ain't. At the end of the day, we all regret. Lets just say that we hope not to regret those decisions which are very important.

A few weeks ago. Someone told me that she was going to work hard in her school. She said she was not going to let the money go to waste. She said she will do what it takes. At the end of the day, I don't know what happened or what will happen. But I hope you kept your word.

Every single time you feel like letting go and give up, always remember why did you hold on so long for.

Another friend told me too that she's going back to school. All the assignments, work, projects. I totally understand that they suck. But sometimes in life, we all need to do what we need to do.

I know you are deeply hurt by what I wrote the other day. I do not ask for your forgiveness. But I want you to understand that that is what I felt at the end of the day. If something didn't work out, it didn't. I totally understand that you are coming from good intentions and I totally appreciate what you had done to a friend like me. But I don't wish to lie to myself, or even to you.

Yeah, maybe this is it. The end of some chapters, and the beginning of others. Maybe someday I will look back and realise how silly I am. But if that day comes, I will face it myself.

Yes, I know I think of a lot of things in a very negative manner. The me now do not lack any more confidence. One of the main reasons why I keep looking at the negative side of things is that they give me a reason to become better. It is like a way to make yourself thrive harder, not that I don't have confidence in myself.

We all have weaknesses. I just hope you understand. I am very sorry to hurt you with those words.

I wanted to write this post for so long. But I couldn't make myself do it. And today, I shall face the truth.



p.s. 有一个叫做幸福的世界, 没有泪水