LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Sunday, June 19, 2011, 10:11:00 PM
Endure

These days ain't easy. I have a lot to do. But I can't seem to do them. All these days were wasted away. I can't seem to see my future.

I am so screwed up. I can't find a proper way to tell anyone what I am feeling right now. I feel like I am going crazy. My brain seems to be overheating and exploding as every second pass by. I ask myself; what would I do if I had time?

I used to tell myself I will do this I will do that. And now when I really have time, I backed out. Time waits for no man. I have no mood to do anything. I see no future.

I have not been sleeping well for these nights.

People say that there's a choice for everything. Well, tell me my options.

Sometimes I feel that I don't have a choice. Or rather, I can't even seem to find ONE option.

Someone told me that day that I am someone who is mercenary. Well, I was deeply troubled by this. Because right down in my heart, I knew that was right. I am someone who is unscrupulous in what I do and will do whatever it takes to fulfil my aims. She also told me that I am good at acting, which I knew inside me that was true. Well, she really seemed to figure me out.

I am not someone of exemplary calibre. So what am I living this life for?

p.s. I still prefer who you really were.