LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Monday, June 6, 2011, 3:56:00 PM
Ardor

I have a heavy mind today. Things are growing darker and grayer. The mist is thickening and nothing else is soon visible.

I fooled a lot of people. So what is it that I had become?

All these deceit, masks. All the lies, they are gonna come back. What comes around goes around..

Will things be different if I start to give up?

I keep telling myself that this is not how it should be. But what is?

I need to get away. Maybe that'll help a tiny little bit. Maybe if I take that vital step out, things will be brighter. But I am afraid to take any step or any maneuver at this stage.

I know I can't fail anymore. I know this is unreciprocated. And I know that these feelings are fictitious. But why am I feeling so anguish right now?

I need the answer. Real soon. Before things get really out of hand. I committed too much. I paid a price too high.

I need to believe in fate. But I don't have enough trust in it.

I need to spend my attention on other matters.

Where's my angel?
I'll be the guardian.

p.s. If I count to a hundred patiently, will you appear?
- Posted using my iPhone