I don't know.

And so I met up with her. And so you think I am a waste of your time? Instead, let me tell you that I feel that YOU ARE WASTING MY TIME. Come on, look at the big picture. It had been so long, and now you still tell me that I should think again?

I woke up my idea. Have you? No, I don't think so. You are still as naive as what you were years back. Stop telling me what to do. I am so far ahead of you that you are probably fogged in your own world.

I have nothing to say to you. Nothing matters now anyways. You can go back to your naive world and live your dream. One day, one hell of a day, you will wake up and come back to reality. Then you will know what you had missed out. I am ready for my future, are you? No, not that I can be sure of.

I changed for the better. So what have you done? Look back and tell me in my face, what had you done? Getting into university is no big deal. In the working world, that sheet of paper will only lead you to the entrance.

Score in school, fail in life.

One day, I will prove you wrong. It is on that very day that you will regret this. All these crap that you'd said. They make no sense to me. I see you as childish as any other kid.

I have no life? Oh come on, just shut up. What does this 'Life' help you in your 'future'? Yes you have a wider social circle, is that all you got?

I wear and do what I like and if that leaves a negative impression on you, live with it. I am not going to change for you. Its too bad, you gave away the chance. One day. One fine day, you will look back and be so sorry over what you have said or implied today.

So what is this life thing that is of utmost importance to you?

Oh well, just shut the hell up. You are so going to fall right on your face.

Work was entertaining today. I did bank reconciliation and missed by 2 cents. Yes, 2 cents. I couldn't balance the books with the bank statement by 2 freaking cents. After 3 hours to search for the 2 cents, I still couldn't find it. I think there must be some rounding up error in Microsoft Excel. But oh well, I will find out the truth on Monday.

Today, I went out for lunch with my boss and colleagues. And so, the aunties talked about marriage. I learnt something. It is cliche but true. Marriage is not only about the two persons. But about two families.

That made me think a lot. So I am searching for the one for me now, who will it be? What criteria should she have?

Now I see that, this is no simple thing. The acceptance of another person into your life takes a lot of initiative and effort. And thats not it, we still have to accept each other's families. All the mother-in-law drama that is on TV, they are true. And what do the guys get in return? The complains from both sides. Scary? I think so.

Fear consumed me at some point of today's lunch. All those beautiful pictures in my mind were smashed and broken.

I thought I was ready. Come to think of it, am I?

I don't know anymore.