So, I asked myself over and over again. What am I doing all these for?

I was taught from young that if I work hard enough, I will get it. With this important lesson I mind, I started to grind. I made sure I work hard. Very hard. However, does this theory really work? I am getting more and more lost each day. Each day I wake up, I tell myself to work harder today than yesterday. I tried and tried and tried. Everyday I push myself to another level.

And if you think it is easy, you can try doing it.

Many lessons learnt these days.

Lesson 1: Don't be an irritant. I repeat, don't be an irritant. What do I mean by that? Stop bugging people over stuff that is of little importance to that particular person. Come on, no one owes you a living.

Lesson 2: Don't act if you are either too good or too bad at it. If you are bad at acting, don't do it. Please don't. It makes you look like a fool. If you are too good, don't do it too. People will really mistake your acting as who you really are.

Lesson 3: In life, fate exists. But it is still up to you to make the first step. There are many things that could be worst or better if you had played those cards right. So start thinking.

Lesson 4: Everyone is a genius. But if you judge a fish with how well it can climb a tree, it will live its whole life thinking it is stupid. There are a lot of things that is out of our reach. For example, if you are born to be fat. You keep trying to tell yourself to be thinner, one day you will only suffer from depression.

If I appear to be not paying attention to certain details, it is not that I don't care. Or rather, that detail or object has not pass my threshold level to make it of a certain priority.

Time makes the heart grow fonder. Well, true? Your say.

I suppose I will wait. What I am curious is how you think of me? So who is this very guy standing here. I know this is an unrequited story, and fairy tales don't exist.

All these factors are telling me to just simply give up. Its like a losing battle, you still lose no matter how hard you try.

For me, yes I know I will face certain rejection or such. But all I want to know is if I played my cards properly, do I deserve a chance?

I don't even know what I really want now. I am so confused that I suppose silence is the best decision ever. Should I try? Or just pass?

Someone please tell me. Or can YOU drop a hint or two?