Well, was too tired to run. My knee makes creaking sounds. I was so freaked out that I show my mum, but she just laughed away. Oh well..

Morning swim was terrible. First, I headed towards the usual SAFRA Jurong for my swim, then BLAM. The pool is under maintenance. What luck! But that is not gonna stop me, I went to the Pioneer stadium for my swim. I swam like 24 laps, then I stopped. That was a little lesser than what I used to swim, but I have gym in the noon. The pool was crowded like 'lunch time kopitiam', oh well, just not my day.

Noon gym was as usual, nothing worth mentioning.

What is worth mentioning was that I think it struck me. It totally struck me in my face. All the time I had been thinking of this, that and those. All I thought was, the problem lies with me. Thus, I began to change. The strive to be perfect. Well, I know perfection does not exist. Thus, strive to be near perfection. I thought the problems could be solved once I get better. But what if the problem was not with me, or rather, is there a problem in the first place?

The problem arose due to greed. I want this, I want that, I want everything that is good. Well, who doesn't? I will never be satisfied. My ever growing greed will only make distance drift further. Sometimes, when it is not meant to be, it is not. Don't think that the problem lies with you or what-so-ever. So what if I had a car? I will want a Ferrari. So what if I have a Ferrari? I want a private jet. This is so me.

Well, blame that on genes. Now that I have this thought, I shall not persist anymore. I need to start telling myself that I am not the problem. I shall regain my confidence.

But that has nothing to do with making myself a better person. Whether a not there is a problem, or if I am the problem, should never ever stop me from improving. I'm gonna keep my options open.

For so long, I started to change for people. I decided that I should now change for myself. Many of the times, I had always wondered if that was friendship or was that some long lost fate. Now that I had come to my senses, I think it was neither.

I am just another man. There is only so much I can do. I will stop all these nonsense and begin my new life.

Come to think of it, was there really a problem in the first place? I am too paranoid. I need to fight for my life, my future, my goals. And I need companion, someone whom I can really trust.

I also need to start on my master plan. Heh, and no I don't plan to steal the moon. I plan to... ... ...