LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao
There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Friday, May 27, 2011, 11:18:00 AM
Fade
The sun rose and sat again. At the end of the day, what changes? I am losing it. My determination and faith, they are dwindling. I ate more and more as days go by. My weight remained constant. Everyone tells me, "nvm one la, eat once or twice nvm one". Well, I know that single meal or two will not have drastic effects. But, it is about the persistence and drive that gave way.
My brain is getting overloaded. With both personal and work stuff. I can't even remember what I did or ate yesterday. God, this is so killing me.
Many things happened these days, with these graduation and such. My career with EY is now official. Too many changes. A little too much for me to handle.
However, these are not all. Many more things are happening behind our back. Matters pertaining personal feelings and such.
My dad was right. I do things too harshly. I need to slow down. I am rushing through a lot of decisions and actions that I am being looked like a fool at times.
Well, this is life. Live with it. That's what I tell myself daily.
'No one else cares about your failure(s) besides yourself.' This is so damn true. This was told to me during my graduation. Yes, I totally agree. I couldn't get over a lot of falls and injuries in the past few years.
These led to me losing my confidence and becoming inferior. I always thought people are looking down on me or how insignificant I am.
With those in mind, I tried my best to change. To become someone of exemplary ability. Did I succeed in the end? I don't know. I got better, that's for sure.
I can now think a lot clearer. I can now run a lot faster. I am now a lot stronger.
What is right? What is wrong? And most importantly, who decides? Life is filled with a lot of grey areas, a little too much for my liking.
I took a peek at the time. It's 11.11am. And so I made a wish.
My wish is to find someone important in my life. And hope that the person will come faster.
What I feel is unfair is the looks that you are born with. There are many things that we can alter with time and effort. But this is one exception.
Well, I realized it's not about her anymore. I was too impatient. My vision was blur. Now that I'd straightened my thoughts, I'll wait patiently.
Well, it had been near 6 months. Everyone will soon be back. And what changes? Time.
gosh stupid app placed this on Facebook
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