Sometimes, ignorance is bliss. I agree totally. And curiosity killed me. One thing leads to another and then BLAM, I suddenly have a lot in my mind. The biggest question in my head was: Why was there no transparency?

No, this has nothing to do with politics.

Was it me? Unreliable or that I'm pure insensitive. I don't know if all that I know was supposed to be hints dropped or just purely coincidence. Now that I am not hanging like a thread, I think I need to re-consider about the distance between me and you all. I always thought the distance was not great, after this very morning, I had decided otherwise. Catch up or give up? I don't really know now.

I admit I gave up a lot of times, but its like fated or something. At the very last moment, there was always this twist that gave me a little light, hinting me to hold on. For all the time the light appeared, I believed in it and held on. Sometimes I wished I wasn't so naive. But other times, I thought hard work and perseverance will lead me to the rainbow in the very end.

Sometimes I look at the replies that you all give, they are so demoralising. Was it me? Did I push it too hard? Or just merely me thinking too much?

Maybe. Maybe. Maybe. Too many variables, too many uncertainties.

Will it work out in the long run? Or time will just cause everything to fade away. I don't hold the single key to this question that I wish I had.

I am starting to see ambiguity and disjoint amongst us.

It was that very night where I thought I was fine, finally the perseverance paid off. But it was just a illusion, a fallacy. To be very honest, I'm very very disappointed.

I shall just write till here. And I really hope for the best. I don't wish that such a good friendship will be tarnished just like that.

Happy times together :D