I don't know. There are so many unknowns that they are practically blocking my vision. I need clear sight, I need goals.

What do I really want? It is always coming back to this question.

Life is short, before you know it, it is over. I am here in my mid 20s without any achievements. So what does life mean to me?

I need fate. Yes, I repeat. I need fate. Fate is something that we believe in and is not controllable by us. Well, fate always work in movies, I hope it works for me too.

I hate it when people start associating my history or what I did in the past. Why can't you just give me a break and look at the current situation? I ain't any immortal, I too make mistakes. Why don't you all just shut up and move on with life? Why do you all like to associate failures or past failures, to be exact, with me? I can take jokes, but not those whereby there's something between the lines. I sense it, I really do. Don't try to associate me with any other people of the other gender again, and I mean it, especially if I am in a group. If it is between both of us, I can have higher level of tolerance. In a group, don't do it again.

Tomorrow is Vesak day, not like it matters anyway. I need to think of something. I can't rot anymore. I need change.