For all the days of the week, I either go to the gym, swim or run. Tonight, I thought of giving myself a break and stay at home for a good rest after 5 days of work. Terrible idea. I started to regret this very decision at 6.45pm when I reached home at 6.05pm. I could not even withstand 40mins of home staying.

Every minute I lie on my bed, I thought of the other things that I could be doing to improve myself. I think I really have some psychological problem. I might really be mentally unstable.

I tried to watch a movie, but I kept fast forwarding it till the end. I spent like 30mins watching a 100min movie. Perfect way to waste away my time.

I was supposed to go out with my auntie colleagues to Suntec for some dinner gathering. But I pulled out at the very last minute.

Why?

Think about it, I already have to brainstorm for topics to talk about during that 1 hour of lunch break. What make you think that I will be able to withstand a LONG evening of 'search for topic'? I'm only temp staff, I don't really care about the company nor the work, as long as I don't get into trouble, I'd just go along with whatever is there.

Secondly, the price. Come on, they earn like 3 times my salary. Of course eating at some posh restaurant is nothing to them, but a dinner at some 'I don't even any idea where' high class restaurant would seriously cost me at least a day of my salary. I'm not going to let my money just go to waste in this way.

Lastly, they are bringing their spouses. They are all around the age of 35-40 years old. Incredible! So I'm this young lad there and half the time they talk about things that I don't really understand or I don't really care about.

The only reason why I agreed to it at the start, was that it was a chance for me to go to these type of 'drama' events, where people network around and such. But come to think of it, it is not even the correct age group.

I'm DEAD BORED NOW. Like seriously BORED. I don't have any mood to do anything else, and I really think there is only one sole thing in my mind right now. And no, it is not money.

The drive for all the wants that I was thriving for is diminishing. It's like a candle flickering in the late windy night. I feel demoralised...

I think I'm greedy. I always search for the better way(s) to achieve something, even at times, I'm already using the most effective way.

I read what I wrote, it doesn't even make sense. Haha, this shows you how bored I'm. Tomorrow is Saturday, gonna be a long boring day for me. If anyone reads this and want to give me suggestions to me, feel free to do it. I'm open to suggestions. :)