Study Day

Went to school to study Fundamentals of Finance today. Nothing much pretty happened, except for the fact that EBIT is not coming out for this year's semester examination. Reached school at 10am and went home at 4pm. Normal day, nothing peculiar happened.

Something that went through my mind today: Friends.

Who are friends? They are a bunch of people whom you trust(maybe?) and want to be with. At this time, i need to distinguish friends and tools. If you depend on someone to do something, he/she is a tool, not exactly a friend. However, in most cases, friends are tools. But tools are not friends. I might sound stupid/retarded here, but I believe i make absolute sense.

Okay, lets keep tools out of the picture. Friends. Who are these people? How would you consider him/her your friend? People say, a friend in need is a friend in deed. I do agree, with time, you can see through a person, whether a not you take your friend for a tool thats another story. Okay. Back to friends, if you have this close friend, how far would you expect him to go for you? A typical example, if suddenly you pass away, will this 'Friend' look after your parents, loved ones? Maybe, thats what normally people answer. But if your friend tells you maybe for such a situation, is that what you really want? Well, saying yes is not an easy task. Personally my parents are like 50+ years old, and if anything happens to me, tell me how can they survived. They spend most of their financial ability trying to bet on this young man here. So if this bet loses, they are goner. Anyone can tell me that if anything happens to me, he/she will look after my parents with both time and financial ability? Probably not anyone that is reading this right now.

So back to the million-dollar question, how far can/will your friend go for you? Sometimes, people do not even want to go out when you are feeling bored, tired or even lethargic. Excuses are countless. Well, I have to admit that some of these might be true. But, all? LOL. Sometimes I feel like giving up, or rather I did gave up. However, I do not know why I keep telling myself that there is like a slight chance. I appreciate Andrew for doing all these things, trying to get things going. But I suppose when things are not within reach, it will never be. Well, think in other shoes please, if you do not like to organise things, what makes you think that others like to do such things? Have it ever crossed your mind that such things are totally necessary? If it havn't, its high time you think hard about what you want to do with your life.

I was young once; stayed at home, played maplestory, read books, clubbing, watched tv, played card games, chatted on the phone for hours, shopping, even talking to people that I have not spoken to for like 6 years just to do networking. I can say that whatever that you are doing, I probably had done it before. Sometimes i feel stupid for having to act to be someone i am not, but i do not have a choice. I am facing a time lapse, I am hanging out with people that I am not suppose to be with(not in a bad way). Friends with the same age as me are doing things MY way, but I am not. I only have myself to blame for this. I tried to work things out but failed again and again.

Well, on the other side of the story; if you are someone's friend, how far will you go for him/her? Ever thought of this? Taking people for granted is all normal. You should do this, you should do that. Hey, think again, if you want to change group members with me, think IN MY SHOES please. And even though i tried my best to phrase things nicely, people say that im selfish and what-so-ever. WOW! I DON'T CARE. Yeah, i could do that. If you were me, I bet you would have said like: 哎呀，你可以的啦。你不是说你很厉害咯. Then, laugh it off. Smart way? Yeah, i learnt my lesson, the hard way.

Another thing that I learnt these few weeks, a perfect phrase to deal with all situations: I thought you will understand.

Eh, seriously, I think this phrase will get you out of trouble for like 99% of the time. Anytime a problem arises, you say: I thought you will understand. Oh, now the problem gets transferred, the arrow points towards the other direction. This seems to be saying: Hey! You do not understand, so its your fault. So do what I say please.

Sounds like a plan huh?

So everytime its my fault, I have to apologise. Its me, again and again. Okay, if this is the case, tell me beforehand first please. So that I know what to reply and save all the trouble.

Well, I did some research these weeks, I realise some people only come to look for me when they need something. Hey, you know how to do question blah blah blah? Hey, you have notes for blah blah blah? Hey, you can type the blanks for the lecture notes for me? I think no one ever says: Hey! How are you?

Maybe its just me. I do agree that the fault does lie on me. But all?? I know I have a part to play, but it takes two hands to clap issn't it?

Well, if anyone ever reads this. If this upsets you in anyway, it is not intended and not in my chain of thoughts. If you are not sure if I am referring to you in anyway, then I am not.

P.S. I gonna name my dog 'Poppy' if i ever get one.