LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao
There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Saturday, June 13, 2009, 10:41:00 PM
Another Wasted Chance
Dumb Day
Seriously, i think im really hopeless. Totally hopeless..
Friday was the school financial thingy day. I went with much anticipation and excitement. Coz i know she will be there. And the fact is: She IS there.
It all started with the early morning auditorium thing. I thought the reporting time was 9am as I honestly thought that higher ranks have orders which overrule lower ranks. But fuck it.
The story goes: It was around 10.05 when i entered the auditorium. I thought that i was the one late and i was consciously scanning for andrew and company. Of course, they didn't turn up. They received phone calls from Ng Eng Poh that they only need to come at 10.15am. Anyway i was not at all pissed with anything at this stage. As I entered the auditorium, i realised that andrew they all were not here. So i decided to just settle down alone. At this instance, i saw her.
What happened next was totally due to my hopelessness.
I saw her, she saw me.
I was alone.
She waved to me.
I waved back.
And you know what this fucking smart bastard did?
I went to an emo empty seat behind her and sat there, with her eyes on me. OMFG. I'm so ridiculously hopeless. And you know what? The seat beside her WAS TOTALLY EMPTY.
Fuck me, seriously.. Haiz.. cui liao.. im in no mood to do anything now. Not like what, but im just dumb stupid and full of shit.
Now i missed the opportunity, i will never get to know/see her again. On my way back, i thought of this. This is definitely not a luck factor. In fact, there was the chance. There was the hope. And i crushed it.
Fuck sia. I am an empty vessel sia.. Only know how to talk, talk, talk. No action de. cui lah. don't wanna talk about it le. Biggest mistake this year so far..