LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Friday, April 3, 2009, 10:33:00 PM
Hopeless

3rd Day


today was supposed to be the last day of my work at TCGS... however, Catherine still has contagious chicken pox.. so i have to stay on till next thurs.. i dont know if its good news or bad ones.. work have been getting from bad to worst.. i cant do anything about it.. and i know that Jenise is trying to make a constant effort to help me..but.. theres a limit to what all people can do.. the same old boring 8 hrs everyday.. yes i know that theres money rolling in.. but whats the point? u sit there waste ur time for just some pieces of paper? you dont learn anything.. you dont do anything.. all you do is wait for food and such..


when Jenise asked if i wanted to continue till next thurs, 1/2 of my mind was in an array of thoughts.. i dont know if i will regret to that nod.. but whatever, its only 3 more days.. i applied for leave on tues so as to be kiasu for my GEM. i figured out that its only a few more days, i can do her a favour and just be present there..


on my way to work today, i keep thinking about what happened last night. was it my fault? i have to say partly.. but this doesnt mean that im the only one in wrong.. im sick and tired of trying to fake conversations.. coming out with things that i dont even like to do.. in the past, i thought i was in the wrong.. whatever i did, i tried to delude myself that, its me.. the problem lies with me.. but now, i think i have to think otherwise.. sometimes, no matter how much effort you put into something, it doesnt balance..



im trying to untangle my life.. trying to set my priorities right.. there are many things on hand to do.. many others need to be put aside.. and sadly, i dont see the urgency in friendship now.. after all that i've tried, this is what i get.. this is what they think of me.. okay.. so yeah..


my life cant be much worst than this.. so why not i just go ahead with this? im gonna try.. hmm.. maybe try is not a gd word.. maybe i'll use the word change.. no one knows the future.. so im not gonna plan so much for it.. just do what i deem is right now.. sick and tired of being the nice guy.. people dont appreciate things.. they just remember all the bad things that you do..


watch ur back, before things really turn nasty like mine.. thats all i have for my readers..