LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Friday, April 10, 2009, 10:05:00 PM
10 Days

Good Fri Day


i totally forgot today is a public holiday.. i thought it was a saturday.. stupid me.. i planned to go to the gym and perhaps go walk walk.. then i realise: omg.. today is GOOD FRIDAY.. gym 1/2 day.. omg omg... haiz.. cui liao.. in the end go imm walk walk.. nothing much to comment on my day.


yesterday was my last work day.. i told Jenise that i dun wan work liao.. i wan rest 1 week den prepare for school reopen.. some ppl ask me, got thing prepare meh? got.. nid to start to cut down on things that are not necessary le.. time to tidy up my table and do serious things.. i have a lot of things on my desk.. my desk also a lot of dust.. coz everyday i lazy do this lazy do that.. work liao go home dota.. thats my life.. i dont like it.. but what to do?


i think my mood is getting better le.. lesser things to think off.. perhaps maybe i thought it through le.. somethings are not worth persisting.. no point u put in so much effort then in the end u realise its worthless.. i hate the feeling that all u have done have gone down the drain.. v sian one..


sometimes its better to not think so much.. think about others think about urself.. then u realise, theres no point.. no action talk/think only.. no use one.. i can slp better these days.. maybe its me.. or maybe i straightened out my thoughts le..


i have a chinese saying: 哪个猜心者不自私，不卑鄙? if u wanna know what others think, u tend to have a selfish thinking to lead his thinking to urs.. i dont know if this applies to all, but it applies to me.. i believe that everyman is selfish.. everyone thinks for themselves before others.. everyone wants to be the main character in life.. everyone wants to be in the middle of the spotlight.. but how many can do this? the strive for the personal highscore.. is it really worth it? at the end of the day, after u try to achieve all you want.. are u happy? will you regret?


how many rainbows are there in the world for the people? is everyone entitled to a rainbow? or maybe, some lucky ones get it? will i get it? i dont know.. the drive to move forward.. is it working? or am i just deceiving myself?


and for that incident that night, i know im in wrong.. but.. im quite sure its not only me.. im not gonna take the first move.. but whatever.. i dont really care.. im trying to make my life easier for myself.. and i wont allow people to just spoil my mood or day for lame stuff.. say that im selfish or what-so-ever.. i dont care anymore.. yes im a sore loser. i admit this.. i cant lose.. i hate that feeling.. i rather run away from the problem then lose.. thats me..


and 1 more last thing,


HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREW!


i dont know ur bday sia.. until u today create facebook.. =.= i see liao immediately talk to you le.. >.<>