LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Friday, March 27, 2009, 10:24:00 PM
Time Is Just A Buffer

Rain Day


its pouring outside now.. the rain smell is hovering in the air.. the temperature is low and i cant get to sleep.. the rain is splattering into my room.. the constant water droplets that landed on my face tasted like mockery from others... no matter where i go, its always pouring all the same..


another boring day at work, i told myself. i dont wanna work like this in the future.. but how? i dont know.. i dont wanna work in some small Singapore company my life and just be satisfied with it.. maybe humans do have their limitations.. there are somethings in life that we have no control over, and thats what destiny is.. i used to believe that theres no destiny, we hold our own life. we have total control over ourselves.. it might be this case in the past, but now? think again..


i totally believe that poor people like me have no reason to learn arts. what i mean by art is like drawing, piano, dance.. i know that if i try to strive for a career in art, i would probably fail in life.. now i understand why people go to science.. imagine u are a random kid that belongs to a normal family.. ur dad brings home $2,500.. do you think you are able to learn piano at like a few grands per year? ok lets say ur family takes u as god and allows you to deplete their resources to learn piano.. how far can you go? lets be practical.. u cant earn much by being a pianist unless u are some imbalanced shit or lucky fellow.. well.. if u are really lucky, u dont even need to learn anything to be successful.. ok.. take it that u are a random kid around the block, what are chances that u will be the next mozart? eh.. WAKE UP UR IDEA LA.. if u dont go to that extent, how are you gonna survive?


money is just the most practical thing on earth.. lets do some maths.. lets say ur mum and dad bears you at the age of 30.. so by the time you reach 20, hmm... a random kid will be in uni or holding a diploma.. so by the age of 55, ur parents retire.. lets say you are the sole kid.. now u have to feed people.. at the age of 25, u have 3 mouth to feed.. excluding ur spouse or maybe ur dog.. at the age of 25, how much can you earn per month? 2k? ok.. good game.. imagine 2k.. electricity 100, telephone 100.. hey there issnt much 100s to go around... ok.. car is almost out of the qn.. 700 per month just on instalments.. 200 on petrol, maybe 100 on parking? ok.. now you people get it.. eh.. u eat air? is there enough money?


now comes to the qn of housing.. a condo would require like 1+k per month on instalments.. hey dude, money no enough.. den how? i told myself, i DON'T wanna live in HDBs forever, neither do i wanna take public transport.. will i be able to prove myself here?


i told myself, i wanna sponsor my mum and dad for a europe trip when my dad retires.. will i be able to do that? i want to keep this as a surprise for my mum.. she had never been to places further den thailand.. i really hope i can bring her and my dad to paris and france.. this promise that i made to myself, will i be able to fulfill it? can i? i dont know..


yeah, and last thing. i really cant stop making people pissed off with me.. i thought i was joking with vivien when she got angry.. haiz.. i really suck at communication.. maybe i should just keep quiet.. if vivien come across this, im sorry.. i didnt mean it..