LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Sunday, March 15, 2009, 12:47:00 AM
Fun? Enjoyable Holiday?

No Rain Day


hmm.. today im gonna write abt a phrase: Life is like a river, its inevitable not to meet some hurdles and mistakes.. i think its very true.. a river has a lot of stones and fishes.. yet the water is flowing down continuously.. if the water was a man, hes very strong and emotionally stable.. even with the knowledge of the hardship and troubles ahead, he still wants to continue moving downstream.. is there a reason why he wants to move downstream? hmm.. he has no idea where hes moving to.. he is absolutely clueless of his future or his life.. maybe in the real world, some people are like these water.. they thrive so hard to achieve what they want.. they believe that somehow they are able to achieve these goals..


hmm my stand? i believe that out of 100 ppl who thrive hard to achieve what they want, 30 will actually achieve what they probably want.. 50 will die halfway due to lack of stamina? the other 20 will die of illness or what-so-ever SARS, head foot mouth disease... well.. i wish im in the '30'.. but.. its only my 1 sided thinking.. i will probably end up with the '50' given that luck will be on my side.. why? this is not being emo or pessimistic.. one have to face the reality.. if u know u cmi, pls.. for fuck sake.. admit it.. dont be so strong headed and act that u are gd in everything..


life had been miserable these few years.. i haven being happy for quite sometime.. every sec that i use is another step into my grave.. i don't wanna live my life in misery.. but what can i do? i dont even know what will make me happy.. i have lost my bearings in life.. i dont know what im aiming for.. aim too high and the harder u fall.. aim too low.. then whats the point? someone save me pls..


had a short talk with siying juz now.. well shes still a nice young girl as what she were.. she asked me if i knew where to watch online football.. probably wanna talk to her boyfriend about the man u liverpool game.. well.. i dont know actually how to watch soccer online.. i told her http://www.soccernet.com/ was the only soccer website that i know.. =( she must be disappointed with me.. well, i was browsing at facebook juz now.. and i realise many people are actually talking about that soccer game.. mainly girls.. i dont know why.. suddenly surge of girls talking abt football sounds weird.. probably want another topic to talk to their boyfriends ba.. well, even though i know Siying wont read this, i wanna thank you so much for being so nice to me.. i was such a jerk/dick in the past.. well, u were the only one who talked to me, everyone avoided me like i tio AIDS or something like that..


well, shes now in NUS taking chemistry.. her boyfriend is handsome and rich.. and no, im not interested in her.. shes just a very nice girl to me.. someone who treated me differently.. i am really sad that i didnt work hard last time.. if not i would have been equal grounds with her.. im very very disappointed with myself. i dont know why i lack the determination or the ability to think.. if i had just work a bit harder 4 years ago.. i wont be this wenyao now.. i know i wont be..


actually, i really miss my JC classmates.. i hope i can keep in contact with them.. but.. i doubt they want to know me la.. i understand la.. but i understood it too late.. too late.. someday i hope my JC classmates read this and we could go out for lunch or dinner together.. lastly, i would like to apologise to all my classmates in the past.. sorry, i sincerely apologise for my wrong doings in the past.. i hope u guys can forgive me and remember me..



i still remember doing chemistry lab with Rowena.. those times were gd.. images of me, luqi, jeannie playing basketball at night near JJC, i can still remember those gd times.. but i smashed them, i destroyed myself.. why? why does it have to be this way? why did that happen to me? why??? someone pls... give me a chance..all i need is a chance.. a Chance..