LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Friday, November 14, 2008, 11:33:00 PM
Regret

Shame Day
this week was sure a busy week.. everything went wrong.. from tutorials to projs to even friends.. things are not as simple as it seems i think..

ideas was sort of screwed.. had the stupid dustbin idea which no one had comments..

itab was worst.. had the whole presentation shown to the class which made a joke out of myself..

CRS was a flop.. omg.. i just didnt manage to score in it i think..

and finally mob, which didnt do as well as expected either.. not that i had high hopes.. but things just dont turn out my way..

had sometime by myself on the way back home.. i realise if there was 1 person to be blamed, it was me.. i didnt actually listen to others and kept staying to my own ideology.. i realise sometimes being actually defensive is good, and might really save you from unnecessary trouble.
mob was a flopped coz i really went too far away from the normal presentation.. i always thought something different might attract more attention. but i think it doesnt work this way.. somethings are meant to be kept at a certain limit, beyond that limit would mean having negative effects.. recalling the Monopoly idea, which really caused the group to crack their head over nothing.. seriously i need to change this.. sometimes, being normal is good and safe..

actually, kim tried to pull me back for quite a few times.. but i kinda didnt get her.. after the whole thing, i realise she was right.. there was no need for such fancy stuff.. just a normal presentation might not be as bad as wad i think.. i really need to reflect liao.. these few projects.. all i wanted was a different presentation.. so much that i actually over did it and made things even worse...

i am feeling so bad now.. coz of my selfish thinking, i actually brought the group into such problem.. they wanted a presentation from the start, i was the one who keep nagging on wanting a special one.. in the end, i got my 'special' presentation and the plan backfired.. i should really take others into consideration..

maybe rujun was right, i changed too much.. too much... even my thinking was affected.. why did this happen?? i dunno.. i spent a lot of time thinking over this.. all these.. worth it???
i am starting to hate myself.. i cant seem to just do something right.. all these seems to be a lie.. all that i had promised myself.. maybe i just cant do it.. there are certain limit a person can go.. and i think i saw mine.. the problem lies with me; and i have to do something to myself to solve it...

and finally, i think i have to apologise to my MOB group. Sorry, i shouldnt have went so far to get the presentation my way.. if theres someone to blame for this, its me..