LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008, 10:33:00 PM
New Chapter

New Day


i spent quite a bit of time thinking over the weekends.. i realised i was to blame.. thus i decided to change.. this time i change for a different motive..

hmm.. changes.. how to do about it? i decided to really spend time on things that are worth the time.. i deleted all games from my computer for a start.. so, no more dota, no more red alert 3.. nothing.. not even solitare.. i realise i really spent too much time on these shit.. the only entertainment i left behind was movies and my mp3s.

anyway, to be honest.. i tried changing during the holidays to attract people of the other gender.. u can kinda say that i failed.. and also i realise that poly relationships are really not for me.. face the fact, i am cui.. and i am really too old for poly students..


bike lessons are resuming soon.. in order to force myself to it.. i decided to get the nokia N810.. its a internet tablet.. it has GPS system.. which i will need once i get my bike..


things are gonna change.. i wanna join some CCA to get some activites so that i can know more people.. not juz people of the other gender.. but people who are worth leaving contacts for =P.. i need to start real soon.. had wasted 1 sem doing nothing.. or rather 1 1/2 sem..


gym sessions are gonna continue,and so are my swimming plans.. but now they are for a different purpose.. to gain confidence.. i realise that confidence is not how u see urself.. but how u see how others perceive you.. which is based on some sterotypes.. for eg.. Fat = Lethargic.. need to change all these.. i dont wanna go into some interview looking stupid and restless.. thus, changes are needed..


yea.. and i need a social life badly.. time to hit the pubs i think.. been giving tons of excuses to my friends.. i need to get up.. get some night life and meet some real people.. no more gaming shit for me..


spent really some time thinking on how my life's gonna be.. no more shit, no more time wasting.. i learnt lessons the hard way.. and i dont want that to happen again.. Alan is correct; i dun wanna waste my time anymore.. i dont have any to waste..


life's not about how i play it.. its about how my life plays me.. i need to view things from different perspective.. i really aint young anymore..


and for those who thinks that i think a lot, its true.. i think a lot.. and a lot more than what ur think i am .. i doubt anyone wanna know what is me..