LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Monday, September 1, 2008, 11:37:00 PM
Rainy September

Gloomy Day
1st September 2008, new month, but nothing much to expect. yeah, change the background music to Wake Me Up When September Ends. i dunno why. this is my worst year in my life. or rather, i think i juz realise how life should be. for the past 20 septembers, i was rotting my life away.. facing the computer with MapleStory, DotA and other shit.. my life was about virtual gaming, now i realise there are more than what meets the eye. gaming is juz for you to get out of reality, its a place where u can try to win. thats my 2 cents thought though.

i realise that life is about winning and losing. there issnt draw.. is it possible for someone to win all the time? i am not very sure..but i am sure that some people are meant to lose. no nid see others, i am a fine example. 20 yrs old still in poly.. wtf.. sometimes ppl ask me now doing what. i also dunno what to answer. 20 yrs old all go uni der lah.. where got ppl still study in poly de??? losers like me loh.. if last time i study more, i would have being on other places loh.. not that poly is no gd.. aiya i also dunno how to say lah.. i suck at EC. if u are 17 and u are in poly, its perfectly normal.. 18 in poly also gd..but 20 yrs old, when ppl of ur age are taking medicine at harvard medical sch, i think u get what i mean..

people say u must fall down to feel the pain. ya i felt it, if i had put in effort in the past, i would not have fell so hard now. but some people dont need to fall down to feel the pain.. i am juz not these smart people i guess. have to learn things the hard way..

today, i met another girl at work, she's studying in SP also, 3rd yr Mass Com. well, she also did not do as well for her a levels, thats why end up in poly. we have the same thoughts bah.. aiya i tell ppl younger den me they also wont understand de.. i have been through it, i know.. i tell u study impt coz next time ur future better. u think its crap right? wa lao, i know its super cliche, but it is a fact. thinking is different bah.. and ya, its not called old-fashioned i think..

today at work, quite ok lah.. i expected myself to be more busy. handled quite a huge amount of cash. quite scary, imagine some 50 bucks go missing, thats it, 1 piece of 50 bucks = 1 day salary. but i didnt lose any.. my work place got 1 cheena girl name Nicole, shes an full time admin assistant at my work place. she super jialat, coz her english not v strong, cant understand singlish.. shes only here for 2 weeks nia.. and my ladyboss nvr fails to pick on her.. i also pity her sia.. my ladyboss not like those peaceful dove leh.. she today mad at Nicole until she flame up leh.. wa lao.. first time i see someone more fierce den Rujun leh. cannot make it lah.. she scold nicole until she cry loh.. wa lao.. dun wan say ler..

37 days past, well, maybe i did not see her for sometime ler bah. today it doesnt hurt so much. perhaps time is really a cure for everything. still think of her. my friends all ask me get over it, i trying leh.. but ur must understand, i not those play play type one.. say forget can so easily forget meh? u think RAM ar, reboot den everything no more.. hais..

I am waiting for the twist in my story, i do not know when it will be. but i hope it wont be long before someone change my life. I hope that i know how to swim just not to drown in these sorrows. Coz tears dont turn into laughter.