LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008, 10:30:00 PM
I Can't Tell How This Will End

Rainy Day

nothing exceptional happened today, well, its not like i have an exciting life.. went to work as usual. nothing much, juz found out that Earlene have a bf i think.. sad.. not coz she's attached.. coz it reminds me of other things.. well, i really suck at talking, i cant talk.. i keep saying things that i didnt mean it.. i nvr fail to make ppl angry.. i think thats why i cui bah..


seriously regretted going into accountancy, i think bo bian ler.. i nvr seem to be able to make a wise decision.. the work i doing now, is what i gonna do after my life at poly.. well.. boring leh.. everyday look at money.. later money disappear u find who????


this morning couldnt really slp, woke up around 4am. no apparent reason. juz think of things.. i laid on my bed staring at the sky. after a while i started playing music with my phone.. sometimes i wonder if that saturday should have happened.. dunno leh.. sometimes i regret planning it.. if i had not known the truth, maybe i wont be like this now.. but if i dun try, i wont even know the result.. i might juz hide away from the truth forever. i juz cant face the truth bah..

i guess i think a lot.. dunno leh.. think about useless things. i always like to set time aside for me to think de.. its like evaluation of what i have done bah.. coz everyday make mistakes, some mistakes v painful de leh, if u dun learn from it. fall down again i might not be able to take it..
i believe everyone needs sometime alone with himself. sometimes i leave my gang to walk alone, thats when i think i need to calm down and think.. i cant really think when i am with my friends. we talk talk talk, i cant concentrate on thinking what i wanna think.


today quarrelled with my mum again, she cook curry and i dun wan eat. cannot eat lah.. i so fat liao.. still eat coconut milk = die leh.. i ask around liao.. 99% of the ppl say i vertically challenged. still eat will die leh.. hais, in the end i cook maggi mee and eat. after that i help my mum wash dishes.. den ok liao.. i think i also too much, she cook the curry so much effort, i dun wan touch.. of course angry lah.. the unappreciated feeling she feels, now to think of it.. i also experience leh.. maybe next time i entertain her by eatting a bit loh.. feel so sorry now..


Since 26-07-2008, 38 days have past. and nope, i have not forgotten her. neither can i forget what happend on that day.. vivid scenes still spin through my brain every now and then. and nope, i am not writing this to get her sympathy. i hope she dont read this too. everynight before i slp, i will look into the sky and stare at the stars. for every star that i find, i will try to say a reason not to like her. but i am always stuck at the first star. because a girl like her is impossible to find...