LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Saturday, September 13, 2008, 10:16:00 PM
Lavender Blue

Rainy Day

the rain was super big this morning.. nothing much today.. went to work for 1/2 day.. did nothing much also.. all other companies all no work.. i also cannot do much.. slack around and chat with ppl loh.. after work i got nth to do.. so i went walk walk alone..

i dunno why.. but i kept going to that place.. why leh?? do i really wanna meet her? or was it juz my feelings toying on me? no idea.. did i actually go with a hope of meeting her there? i need to think about this.. ate lunch alone coz Eileen didnt have lunch outside.. or maybe didnt want to have lunch with me bah.. most probably the latter bah..
today as i was walking around, i saw some ppl who looked gd.. i tried to analyse why they look so good.. but i cant figure out the reason.. lifes unfair..some ppl are juz borned stronger/ smarter.. why? like that no fair leh.. ppl like me. wan to be juz another guy also hard..

today on the bus, i kept thinking.. what do u mean by successful? how do u become successful in life? earn millions? have a happy family? i dunno.. i cant define mine.. i am still at a lost. i cant figure out my future. i dun actually know what can i do in the future.. what my life will be like? 20 yrs liao.. still cannot think..

my mum and dad went back malaysia today.. they go attend some wedding bah.. i didnt want to go.. coz v ma fan, and i also not v close my malaysian relatives.. so.. home alone.. what to do? i dunno.. tml 1 whole day.. gonna do what? i dunno.. rot bah.. maybe i go clean up my house loh.. i realise i v long nvr go out with my friends ler.. i dun even know who take me as a friend now? perhaps everything was juz my own thinking bah..

maybe this is my life bah.. well if i think optimistically, sometimes things are done more efficiently alone.. maybe.. or maybe its juz another excuse to make myself happier