LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008, 9:40:00 PM
Broken Promises

Another Day


today went to work.. got a piece of news.. thurs is my company's in-service day.. means i dun need to work.. didnt know if its good or bad news.. good news coz i can take a break from work.. bad news coz i dunno what to do on that day.. thursday.. what can i do leh? dunno.. think of it tml bah..

tml gonna eat dinner with SiFan and Eileen, coz tml SiFan last day.. haiz.. another person gone.. den who will take over leh? i left like 2 weeks till end of work.. i cant wait till work is over, but i also dunno if i dun work what can i do.. the work keeps my mind occupied and numb my pain.. i realise nowadays i really like living zombie.. no aim de.. everyday wake up go work, go home slp.. everyday same.. i dunno if i like this type of life a not leh.. like no point leh.. but next time i also this type of life de.. so maybe can start to like office work now bah..

today on my way to work, i thought of my life now.. den i look at this primary sch kid.. probably pri 6 spiky hair, oversized shirt.. well.. i must admit he looked good.. but kinda think of it, will he waste his time like me? i duno.. everytime i see ppl doing something, i try to relate it to me.. learn from others bah.. i know i cannot make it ler so i learn from others bah.. learn to listen and change..

i thought of this problem that i have.. when a flaw or problem of me is raised, i normally try to rebutt and find a way to make myself look better.. but..whats the point??? ppl tell u something for a reason.. there must have a point that this person is trying to bring over to you.. i should learn to listen and analyse.. not trying to prove him wrong.. say is easy lah.. everytime ppl say me.. i first thing is shoot back.. duno why.. now i must change.. cannot keep shoot.. wrong = wrong, bad = bad.. admit ur mistake or flaw and try to do something about it.. if not ppl like wasted their time trying to talk to you..

from tml onwards, i will try to listen.. this shall be the first step i will take to save my life.. maybe start of the twist of my life.. we shall see..