LEAVING YESTERDAY
Wenyao

There are some things in life we have no control over, and that's what destiny is.
Monday, September 29, 2008, 10:26:00 PM
AShamed

Moody Day

monday blues indeed.. 4 days to non working life.. everything around me seems to be a lie.. nothing seems real.. am i juz lying to myself? i dunno.. today my dad told me, i changed during the hols.. maybe.. maybe not.. i dunno..

other then work, i seem to have done nothing.. something to be proud of? nope.. another wasted period of my life.. i dun have that many intervals of time to waste.. another month.. its over.. ppl can tell u all they want that looking back is dumb.. but u need to learn.. learnt shit? no idea.. some accounting stuff that i might not even get to use in the future..

Eileen was back at work today.. she told me about all the days she worked at F1... racing wasnt my interest anyway.. so =X. well, she tried to make it sound interesting enough to captivate me.. today woke up at 5am.. juz cant continue slping.. at this rate, i gonna die soon i think.. work was ok.. did some shit, well.. the thought of last working week made ppl complacent.. i didnt put in as much effort now.. even the sales ppl there say: left 1 week, ask so much for wad??

also true lah, u are not gonna help them in the near future.. they spend time telling/teaching u for wad? u think they really nothing to do meh??? but i aint gonna stop asking until i learn all i can in this cui company..

today when i was on the way to work, i had this thought: am i doing things that i like? am i having fun? this set me thinking for quite sometime.. i realise the things i had been doing issnt really what i wanna do..fun? i think i lost the meaning of it ages ago.. for everything i do now, there must be a reason.. and fun comes with the reason.. the joy that comes with the activity is merely optional.. of course, time flies with enjoyment.. am i really such a practical person? or am i becoming one gradually???

i wasnt like that in the past, what made me change?? Army? A Levels? Poly Life? Work? Or even her???